[ Without her thinking or meaning to, her arms tightened around him and she turned her head, resting her forehead against his back almost like she was hiding.

It hurt so much, having people say that it was okay for her to simply exist and live her life here, and she didn't know if she could ever explain that. It wasn't any fault of theirs - she certainly didn't resent Shiro for what he'd said - but the fact of the matter was... she didn't want to get away.

Because as much as a part of her felt robbed after being drafted - she was no quitter. She didn't want to run away from what the lot she'd drawn in life. She wanted to face it head-on and win - then she could get away.

...But she couldn't bring herself to say any of that to Shiro. She would rather keep it to herself. Everything was just too raw at the moment. At the very least, she managed this: ]

... Yeah. I guess I'll have to think about it.

I just don't want to disappoint anyone because I'm here and not... doing my duty at home, you know?