Not in the way he's holding her, because in fact he's doing quite opposite of letting her go in that regard, but-- in his words. Maybe not in what he says, but how he says it, this underlying feeling that she can't shake that he's setting her free even when she was never bound in the first place, not in that way. The way he's responded to her promising that she'll come back to him. Talking about seeing things and feeling things for the both of them even though--
She wishes he could stay. If just for a little while. There are places she's sure Shiro hasn't gone to, himself--
But that's greedy. The universe doesn't need Shiro to go on adventures with her. It needs the Black Paladin and it needs Voltron.
It also doesn't need a Hana Song who feels the threat of tears stinging her eyes as her grip on Shiro tightens, as she buries her face into the shelter of his body once more, possibly for the last time. Silently, she promises him all of those things. That she'll make the most of her time back here and the life she's now got to live, the time she's been granted because he and his team fled across the galaxy to save her from a death that would have only been a matter of time. But her heart is breaking because in none of those promises Shiro asks of her does he affirm her declaration that she'll come back to him and she knows--
she knows he's hiding how unhappy he is about this.
Call it her intuition, but it might have helped that a certain paladin had taken her aside while they were on their way to their home planet, told her because, in the paladin's words, "Shiro would never tell you himself," how much he had suffered after finding out about her near-death, how much he had suffered while waiting for her to emerge from the pod. And how he will likely suffer when they've gone and left her on Earth.
So she promises him that, too, silently. That he'll never have to suffer because she did something recklessly dangerous that put her life in danger. Not again. Not if she can help it. But she can't stop him from hiding inside of himself, can't stop his nightmares from visiting him at night. And so she says, ]
I will. But you have to promise me too, Takashi. You have to go stand is as many storms as you can and watch as many sunsets over different colored oceans as you can and collect as many rocks as you can--
[ She tilts her head back and pulls away just enough to be able to look up at him, then, ]
and don't forget to stop and smell the flowers and think of me, and when you do that I'll be right here and looking up at the stars for you and I'm going to be all right. Okay?
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Not in the way he's holding her, because in fact he's doing quite opposite of letting her go in that regard, but-- in his words. Maybe not in what he says, but how he says it, this underlying feeling that she can't shake that he's setting her free even when she was never bound in the first place, not in that way. The way he's responded to her promising that she'll come back to him. Talking about seeing things and feeling things for the both of them even though--
She wishes he could stay. If just for a little while. There are places she's sure Shiro hasn't gone to, himself--
But that's greedy. The universe doesn't need Shiro to go on adventures with her. It needs the Black Paladin and it needs Voltron.
It also doesn't need a Hana Song who feels the threat of tears stinging her eyes as her grip on Shiro tightens, as she buries her face into the shelter of his body once more, possibly for the last time. Silently, she promises him all of those things. That she'll make the most of her time back here and the life she's now got to live, the time she's been granted because he and his team fled across the galaxy to save her from a death that would have only been a matter of time. But her heart is breaking because in none of those promises Shiro asks of her does he affirm her declaration that she'll come back to him and she knows--
she knows he's hiding how unhappy he is about this.
Call it her intuition, but it might have helped that a certain paladin had taken her aside while they were on their way to their home planet, told her because, in the paladin's words, "Shiro would never tell you himself," how much he had suffered after finding out about her near-death, how much he had suffered while waiting for her to emerge from the pod. And how he will likely suffer when they've gone and left her on Earth.
So she promises him that, too, silently. That he'll never have to suffer because she did something recklessly dangerous that put her life in danger. Not again. Not if she can help it. But she can't stop him from hiding inside of himself, can't stop his nightmares from visiting him at night. And so she says, ]
I will. But you have to promise me too, Takashi. You have to go stand is as many storms as you can and watch as many sunsets over different colored oceans as you can and collect as many rocks as you can--
[ She tilts her head back and pulls away just enough to be able to look up at him, then, ]
and don't forget to stop and smell the flowers and think of me, and when you do that I'll be right here and looking up at the stars for you and I'm going to be all right. Okay?